Well, I am doing better at this blogging thing so far this
year of 2016. Two and a half ish weeks since posting… I think that is pretty
good. So much has happened, that if feels like it has been so much longer. I
have so much to be thankful for, and so much that is going to change our lives
in the next few months. Life is always a whirlwind isn’t it?
To catch you up on our New Year celebrations and exciting
adventures in Washington, we were there until January 3rd! On
December 31st the day started out with a surprise date to Star Wars,
and I ended up seeing some old friends who I haven’t seen together since my 16th
birthday party! We made some yummy cookies, had a great conversation about
life, and got to see their little kiddos, which Carter took every opportunity
to show me he is ready for a sibling (in a good way). I am so thankful for the
great friends that I had in High School who I still talk to. There aren’t very
many, but they sure are treasures to me! Ladies, why didn’t we take a picture?!
After a much needed girls visit, Carter and I headed back to
my parents’ house for a delicious turkey dinner and birthday celebration for
the love of my life and my siblings. It was Jason’s golden birthday and he got
to share it with my sweet little sister and silly little brother. The dinner was
amazing, and opening presents (again) was actually quite fun! I am pretty sure
Jason liked his birthday present far better than his Christmas present lol. Who
thought a phone car mount could bring so much joy to someone? I’m pretty sure
he played with it for an hour before he put it away. He even showed me all the
cool features lol. It wasn't his most fave birthday gift, but I was glad to see he liked something I got him. Ha ha. After that we played some games with friends and partied our
way into 2016. I got my midnight kiss, and almost immediately we all went to
bed lol.
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| Kira and Dyelan getting ready to open birthday presents |
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| He thought this was the coolest EVER |
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| Until my dad decided to ruin it.... |
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| Now this was the BEST gift EVER! |
The next couple days were filled with visiting, playing games, and going to Get Air! We really had lots of fun and made so many wonderful memories!
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| My cute little monkey at Get Air |
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| Everyone who got to jump, I was not allowed with my big belly and all |
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| They all had so much fun! |
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| Cutie Carmen even loved it :) |
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| The only good picture from bowling... I wasn't the camera man :P |
It was so wonderful to be with my parents and be spoiled by
them. I was a little sad to say goodbye, because the next time we see each
other won’t be until July for sure. I guess with me having a baby it might be
sooner, but still quite a long time.
Plus I was not excited for Jason to go back to work. Too bad we have to
have a job to survive and have the things we need.
When we got back to Utah, we were greeted with lots of
doctor appointment (yippee!). One appointment we had been waiting for, for a
very long time it seemed. We had an appointment with our parientologist to find
out the gender of our baby, as well as count their sweet little toes and
fingers and have our anatomy ultrasound. Well…it didn’t turn out at all how we
planned. Carter got sick the night before going home with a horrid cough and
high fever. Jason had a cold the entire time we were in Washington and his
cough never fully went away. Well, because of cold and flu season Carter wasn't allowed to come in the room with me and so Jason had to stay outside with him
(not that he could have come anyway because of his cough). Well, we decided we
wanted to do a gender reveal so that we could find out together what our baby
was going to be. The ultrasound tech put the gender in an envelope and sealed
it so I couldn’t cheat.
Our story of the day doesn’t end there…. Suddenly I found myself
with the doctor looking at some abnormalities they had found with our sweet
baby. The next thing I knew, Carter and Jason were with me in a consultation
room with masks on, and we were discussing options for genetic testing and
setting up an appointment with a pediatric cardiologist. I could not believe
what was happening, and every time I looked at my little family my heart just
broke. I couldn’t hold back the tears for anything.
The next few days brought blood work, and an echo cardiogram
that lasted 3 hours. Our sweet baby will be born with a heart defect One that
will affect the rest of its life. At a week old he/she will have open heart
surgery and there is nothing I can do about it. For some reason our Heavenly
Father feels we need to go through this and has sent us this sweet spirit to
look after and to learn from. I blamed myself so much for a few days, and
couldn’t believe I would have to go through something like this. I found myself
on my knees begging to see a miracle with the ultrasounds and echo being wrong
and that our baby would be healthy. I now realized that I was being silly. Yes,
this is going to be hard. I wish life wasn’t so hard, but that is how we grow
and learn. My little family will be eternal, meaning we will always be
together! Our baby will be born to our family and therefore be with us forever.
Once day he/she will have a healthy heart, a body that is perfect, and we will
be able to be together for the rest of forever. Everything happens for a reason
and God is so good to us, only good can come of it.
Well, for the last couple of weeks I have been freaking out
a little less. I was able to meet a young mother when we moved here that has a
boy with heart problems. When I heard her story (way back then) and all that
she had to go through, I was so thankful that I wasn’t in her situation. We
actually met for lunch one day and talked for 3 hours about the great hardships
with open heart surgery, and constantly worrying about what was going to happen
next. I met her son, and knew that she was put in my path for a reason. She
helped me so much with her great testimony and kindness. I’ll never forget the
feelings of peace after I talked to her. She will never know how much she has
helped me.
My heart is so full and so tender these days. I
am just so thankful for a Heavenly Father who created the perfect plan for us
to come to this earth to learn and to grow and have hard challenges in this
life. I am thankful for the wonderful blessing of modern medicine in these
days, and am thankful for the guidance we are given through the Holy Ghost. I
know that God has a plan for me, and whatever it may be will only be for my
good. This challenge is going to be hard, it is going to knock me down, but I
will continue in faith and know that my family is forever. I am never alone
through it either. I have wonderful friends and family who have already shown
their love and have given me great strength. Jason has been awesome through
this whole thing as well, and I am so glad that I have him to be mine forever.
Please don’t feel sorry for us. Just know that we are going through hard things
so that we may see the blessings. We have had the privilege of seeing so many
miracles, and I know we will only continue to see more. We’ll keep ya updated
as our angle’s story continue. Happy Reading!
