More time has passed

I started this blog a long time ago, after Jason and I got married. I started it to share all our adventures, to update family without having to make a zillion phone calls, and always share our happy news. I never dreamed in a million years I would also share our sorrows too.  Especially ones so heart wrenching. Some times I feel like I should have moved on by now. I should begin everyday thankful for what I've been given, and never look back at what has been taken away. I never thought I'd still be hurting so bad. Every moment is different though. There are moments when I am so blissfully happy and seconds later the tears won't stop coming. There are days when I feel so defeated, and days when I've been given a surge of strength. I wonder if this will ever go away. If this is how it will always be.

I think children have a way of tuning into how their mothers feel. Carter usually wants nothing to do with me, and always wants to be surrounded by friends. The past couple of weeks I've heard so many I love yous and so many, mommy will you play with me? I've gotten more hugs and kisses lately than I've gotten all year. It's amazing how being wanted and needed, is so healing. My little boy is often the only thing that keeps me going.

Carter asking me to play with him at the park

Our family hasn't been up to too much lately. We've visited friends, gone to lots of family events, had a mini get away, and have started to get excited about Halloween. I've also started teaching Chinese children English at insane hours in the morning and night. I've been able to help out in Carter's class,  which has been so much more fun than I ever thought. We're doing pretty good considering all that we've gone through in the last couple years. Staying busy had definitely helped.

We went on a road trip tho Logan to visit our dear friends 

We went to Hee Hawk Farm for a like pumpkin p

Carter with a cute little bunny

Carter at his pumpkin patch field trip 

Cater loved the corn!

Some pumpkin carving fun

The gang carving pumpkins

The awesome jack o lanterns we carved!

My sweet like buddy

Carter in his costume. He's the cutest marshal ever!!!

 We still feel the love and prayers from so many. Thank you for your support, your friendship, and love. I hope I have some more exciting stuff to post next time. Until then make some awesome memories of your own!